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2010-06-17T16:36:00.003-04:00

It’s not what you said that made me cry but what you did…
My tears are tears of joy, not tears of sorrow and
With this I will tell you that I am so happy,
Happy that you came into my life when you did…

SILENCE

2009-12-21T21:53:00.001-05:00

Today I said my goodbyes

as you walked away

And I cried and cried

Knowing that this day was coming

But really not expecting it

Yesterday we smiled

Our lips touched

And today

The emptiness of the aftermath

Loneliness was my only companion

I miss you,

The words spoken by you linger in my ears

I want you

please don’t leave me

And then

No more was left

Silence

TARNISHED

2009-12-21T21:36:00.005-05:00

I want to scream

but what for

The tears are burning

And my heart

numb

hollow

I can’t phantom

the thoughts

running through

My mind

Perhaps

this foolish beat will subside

And the paradise that was

will

Re-appear.

I DIDN'T

2009-12-19T16:22:00.002-05:00

My lips are burning and the residue that is left

Is the constant reminder of what can’t be?

I have fallen and I don’t know how to get up

And the wounds are deafening and the heart let down.

One minute I was walking on air, and then searching for air

As it becomes harder to breathe

Well…nothing is what it seems and

I although weaken by the plunge

I will stay away from the only good thing that I know.

Love; do you believe in love at first sight?

I didn’t.

WORDS

2009-12-07T20:08:00.003-05:00

My friends inquire about my writing, and my ability to write things down in seconds. How am I able to write the way I do, and this is what I tell them?

“I wrap myself in their minds, I feel what they feel. I write and writers are one of a kind…I’m an artist”.

I’m taking my heart to the unknown and

Words are becoming my weakness.

You see I search for the right word

The one word

That can describe this insanity.

FIXATION…

Hmm, no, obsession of what could be

Maybe

ADMIRATION...

Can’t say,

But I do

Appreciate the times our eyes meet

LOVE...

Other than adoring the smile

That taunts my heart.

So not one word can describe

This feeling

VOID...

Perhaps

Because this feeling is so

Unclear

And the clouds that I’m walking on

Are over bearing

Indefinite madness

But only because you exist

BUT...

2009-12-06T21:28:00.001-05:00

I am a leader,

Never a follower

BUT

I do follow my heart.

My heart

Never lies

BUT

It betrays me

When least expected.

Perception is the greatest down fall

Because ALL is not

What it seems.

NO GUARANTEES

2009-12-02T21:12:00.004-05:00

Love has no guarantees

It knows no deception

And it comes and goes in a blink of an eye…

I was standing and there you were

I searched for words to describe this sudden urgency

And I couldn’t, not one word came to mind.

Deaf to the world and suddenly blind,

I was blinded by love

And this I know because the heart doesn’t lie.

Savoring each touch

If only for that split second

Nothing exist

My eyes close and I

Imagining the warmth of your breath

It was then that I realized that

It’s you

My only hope

I know that love has no guarantees

But it leaves you anticipating for

What’s next to come…

AN ADDICTION WITHOUT A CAUSE

2009-12-01T12:55:00.002-05:00

You’re a sweet addiction
An addiction that I can’t deny
I hunger and I hunger for the scent of your smell
The mind fool by act of non existence and
The body numb with desire

I see you and I taste you
And the image vivid to the mind’s eye
You’re the drug that has me in a trance
With no doubts you are indeed
An addiction without a cause

MOTHERS DAY SURPRISE

2009-05-25T20:08:00.007-04:00

I spent Mothers day With my family; the kids were having a blast, the men were being men and us girl were enjoying our day. Everything was perfect and on our way back to the Marina we had some unexpected visitors. Enjoy...

MEMORIAL WEEKEND

2009-05-25T20:00:00.003-04:00

This memorial weekend has been by far one of the greatest weekends I’ve had.
I did nothing; I simply relaxed with my man, enjoyed each other’s company and watch movies all weekend long.
I usually don’t do this,
I mean I like movies,
who doesn’t
but to watch movies all weekend long C”MON so unreal of me.
But it wasn’t about the movies;
it was about spending quality time with the person I love the most.
The weather was perfect
“it rained”
we cuddle,
talked and watch movie
after movie,
from Sci fi
to
thriller
oh
and we can’t forget
the tear jerker’s.
So while half of America partied this Memorial weekend,
I had my own celebrations,
I celebrated the unity of a love beyond perfection,
I celebrated US.

WHAT DO YOU REALLY KNOW ABOUT "MEN"

2009-05-18T20:51:00.004-04:00

You think you know them, really...you do? Or so you tell yourself, but what do you really know about “MEN”.

Men, a rare species, one that can be trained with the right tools and we have the right tools to tame this mystical creature.

Not only do we have the smarts, but we have talent, wits and our seductive ways.

We have the power, the power of the “BLIP” (can’t really write the word down).

So you see “MEN”, they’re not hard to read.

All we have to do is bat our eyes, swing our legs and watch the rain pour “Oh it’s raining men”

KNOCK...KNOCK

2009-04-29T21:05:00.002-04:00

SOFTLY YOU WHISPERED “GOODBYE MY LOVE”

AS I LAY THERE

THE TEARS OVER WHELMING

AND THERE I STOOD

MOTIONLESS

THE WARMTH OF YOUR BREATH

REMAIN FOR A SPLIT SECOND

AS YOU WALKED AWAY

MY HEART LEFT WITH YOU THAT DAY

LORD KNOWS THAT I HAVE TRIED

MANY TIMES I DID AND ALMOST SUCCEED

BUT YOU WHERE THERE

HIDDEN IN THE SHADOWS OF MY HEART

I COULDN’T LET GO AND ALTHOUGH

MY MIND WANTED AND NEEDED SOMETHING MORE

WHAT WAS LEFT OF MY HEART REFUSED TO ACCEPT THE FACTS?

YOU NO LONGER EXIST.

MAYBE ONE DAY

WHO KNOWS

LOVE WILL KNOCK AND I WILL OPEN THE ENTRANCE

ALL THE WAY,

BUT UNTIL THAT DAY

KNOCK…KNOCK

IS THERE SOMEONE AT MY DOOR?

PLAYED

2009-04-28T21:50:00.004-04:00

It's not easy hating someone,

especially

someone you love beyond the depth of your soul,

and

so it all begins.

Your head

spinning in circles

the headaches

that won’t vanish,

the heart

aching,

and

the blur visions

of what really doesn't exist.

If you

make sense

the reality of things,

then you will see clearly,

you my dear

were played.

Words that were said,

gone

with the wind

and

the side of the bed

he once occupied,

empty.

Confusion

another factor

weakness

and

weakness

is only for fools,

are you a fool

or are you a

Goddess.

THERE YOU WERE

2009-04-28T16:42:00.002-04:00

And there you were
In the corner
Sitting by your lonesome self
Starring out at the distance
The view vaguely visible to the eyes
And I wonder
Why so sad
You, there sitting all by your
Lonesome self
You portray happiness
Your eyes portray sorrow
And there you are
Sitting in the corner
By your lonesome self
Devouring your drink
And so I wondered,
What could be going through
Your mind
The splinters on your finger tip
Mocking you
And there you remain
Sitting all by your lonesome self

DILEMMA

2009-02-11T19:27:00.004-05:00

I try not stare

I try not to comment

But how can I not

How can I go on

knowing

the facts right in my face
I saw what I saw

and I heard them speaking softly among themselves,

how foolish can one be.

Yes
I am well aware of the dilemma that stares me right in the face.

Will I be able to control this urge that burns deep in my body,

can I resist the temptation of what I know.

75 % percent off on all Manolo Blahnik shoes AHHHHHHHH…my husband is going to kill me.

KIND, SWEET AND THE ONE YOU DREAM ABOUT...

2008-12-11T19:23:00.002-05:00

I am kind, sweet and the one you dream about…

I am the one you long for,

The one you want to hate and

The one you can’t live without.

I am your past,

Present and

Future,

The one who got away,

The one who you hold tightly,

The one who loves unconditionally and

The one who gives of herself completely

I am kind, sweet and the one you dream about…

IF I WERE YOUR GIRL...

2008-11-03T15:24:00.001-05:00

If I were your girl I would never leave your side.
Two essences meant to be…
You’re my oxygen and
I weaken without your presence.
I go crazy when you are not around and
When you are in sight my heart undresses my soul.
The perfume that lingers in the air
Paralyzes me and
I’m stuck in the depth of reality and fantasy.
Oh dear you,
Come to me,
Feel within me,
The magical emotion of you and me
Spinning in my head
I remember loving you in 1988 and
The deception that followed
But yet I love and still love…
If I were your girl I would never leave your side.
I feel high and
The thrill of you
Once again
Rushes through my blood stream
Together we shall feel
The addiction that love has to offer
The needing and
Wanting and
Believe me you will want more.
Only if I were your girl

RESIST

2008-10-30T15:40:00.002-04:00

I can’t resist the thought of your touch
The longing and teasing
The sudden urge burning deep inside and
The need that only you can provide
Envision my finger tips,
Caressing every inch of your body,
Exploring your deadly sins…
Your lips
On my lips and
Your thighs within mine
The beating of my heart
Pounding, throbbing
As ecstasy waits
I can’t resist the thought of your touch
As your hand slide up my legs reaching
Like a venomous snake creeping and creeping
Attacking and devouring its prey.
“Satisfaction” the only word that can describe
As I savor each touch and the yearning subsides.
Oh, but there it is; the hunger all over again…

TELL ME

2008-10-20T16:18:00.003-04:00

Tell me that I am everything you need,
Tell me that your heart also skips a beat at the sound of my name.
Tell me the words that I long to hear from you “I love you.”
Tell me I am all you ever needed.

In this world where love is so unsure and tarnish by deception; I still have hope that you are in deed the one.

When I think of you I find it hard to believe how you have pulled me under, under loves spell and I can’t find the right words to say.

When you’re around I mumble and stumble… I have fallen, deeper than ever imagine.

SO...

Tell me that I am everything you need,
Tell me that your heart also skips a beat at the sound of my name.
Tell me the words that I long to hear from you “I love you.”
Tell me I am all you ever needed.

THE LAST DOWNPOUR

2008-10-15T21:50:00.010-04:00

Here I am in the midst of the fog and

the rain is pouring down hard and rigid,

is it the last downpour.

I look up and

darkness fills the skies

my eyes are

my body drench and

the sweetest desire runs through me

like the lighting in the sky…

electrifying

I lay there cold

my body trembles and

the rain won’t calm and

my heart beats

faster and

faster

The clouds groan

as if making love and

I can’t contain myself

I want more….

I AM WHO I AM ...

2008-09-27T21:12:00.003-04:00

Why do things happen
things that are in your control
oh so you thought…
but they’re not.
Things that you can't explain...
words misinterpreted and the mind
WOW
how it plays with the insecurities and
you wonder some more and
the words that were spoken
echoes in the depth of your soul and
the hate getting stronger and
the heart weakening with sorrow.
I am
who I am
another victim of circumstances and you sit there judging without knowing.

AS LONG AS I AM ABLE TO WRITE...

2008-09-02T21:45:00.004-04:00

I was hoping to find tranquility;

instead my head is going crazy.

I write

just to write, because I love it,

it beats talking to myself.

I mean everyone talks to themselves,

“once in a while”

but when you start answering yourself

HMMM.

Ever since I could remember

writing has been my passion;

but lately I can’t concentrate,

my thoughts are elsewhere,

it’s like my heart is not 100 % there,

I feel incomplete.

The voices

that once echo within me

are fading,

vanishing into that void

we call solitude,

and I can’t help but cry.

I miss you,

and although

I know this is the end

I can’t help but wonder

was there ever a beginning.

So I will pick up my pen and

I will write

as long

as I am able to write.

WHAT HAPPENS WHEN LOVE KNOCKS ON YOUR DOOR

2008-08-30T13:47:00.002-04:00

Your stomach knots up and

your world spins in different directions.

You anticipate your next meeting and

the words that long to come out are not what you have rehearsed.

Love;

that is what happens when it knocks on your door.

To see him from the distance and

the sound of his voice transcends you to another life.

The stars in your eyes shine brighter and

the butterflies within you

wanting to burst out.

Love;

that is what happens when it knocks on your door.

THE RAIN

2008-08-29T21:57:00.002-04:00

Rain drops on my window sill

drip, drop, drip, drop and

the sound is so deafening to my ears

weakening my knees and

the fear of what is yet to come

My heart is pounding

as the end reaches its final roar.

The rain is not fading like I thought,

but regaining its strength,

getting ready

to demolish the skies.

The fog is thick,

smoky,

cold and

unwanted,

as the terror waits in the abyss of the night.

NUMBER 1# FAN

2008-08-13T18:46:00.003-04:00

Lately I’ve been uninspired

my love for writing not diminishing but placed on hold.

I’ve had so much on my plate;

but now I’m back and so I write this about you,

my number 1# fan.

You know who you are.

In the little time we’ve known each other

I’ve grown to love you

I love you more than you will ever know

and the years feel like a blur.

I will miss you,

everything about you.

I will miss your laughter,
your smile,

the stories,

the cooking

and I can’t forget

the cocktails (LOL).

You came into my life like a breath of fresh air and I will breathe you in as long as I have the ability to do so.

I love you…you know who you are

MY NUMBER 1# FAN.

CALGON TAKE ME AWAY

2008-07-25T22:27:00.007-04:00

I’m going insane…I want to yank my hair

The men in my life are driving me to drink

Really, I am a working wife and mother of 3, ALL BOYS “may I say”.

For once I would love to experience this...

get home and be pampered...

go straight to the bathroom

have your bath full of bubbles and

just sit there and relax. “Calgon take me away”

Yeah sweet thoughts interrupted by

“When is dinner, mom do I have clean uniforms, honey have you seen the remote control”

HAYYYYYYYY Mama Mia…

But oh wait, it’s not possible,

A mothers job never ends.

We come home from a hard day at work,

To cook, get the kids ready for the next day, maybe do some laundry and

By the time you take a minute for yourself you are too tired and have no energy for anything else and

I mean ANYTHING else.

So please if I want a glass of wine instead of the cup of tea,

I think I deserve it; after all, my job is 24/7

I’m always on duty, on call,

But never out of SERVICE…

TELL ME

2008-07-24T19:33:00.005-04:00

Do you feel the love dying to burst out?

Tell me

is it me you see when your lips touches hers

When you explore her body

is it my body you hunger for.

The sensation and the thrill of what could be

deceive with what is.

Do you feel my fingertips

gently enticing,

caressing you all over.

Tell me

is it me you feel

when the bodies are tangled up as one

When you drink and taste her

is my thighs you yearn for.

Do you feel the love dying to burst out?

The sensation and thrill of what could be deceive by what is…

GIRLS NIGHT OUT...

2008-07-22T19:07:00.004-04:00

The bar full and the DJ is off the hook tonight

“Ahora Es" is playing by Wisin y Yandel, I love them… off to the dance I floor I go

Dancing to the beat

Transcending into another world

I own the dance floor

Mine to do as I please

My eyes close,

My hip swinging from side to side

I hold the glass of martini and the night is mine to hold.

My body moving like a snake

My hair wild, all over the place

I’m in control, in control of you

Hypnotizing you with every move

Hmm

Dancing like never before.

FORGIVENESS

2008-07-21T20:37:00.004-04:00

Long ago you broke my heart
my dreams of who I thought you to be
destroyed by the knowledge of who you really were
and so I come about.

I don’t know much about you
I never really knew you at all
and here I am all grown up and I wonder
what my life would have been if I had you in it
from the beginning of my existence.

I look in from the outside
I see that circle that I’m not a part of and should be
and sadness fills the empty void that you created.

Little by little I reach out to those who are a part of me
and I’m trying to build on the foundation that was never established
the one that was lost in time
I want to belong but feel like an outcast.

I want you to know that I FORGIVE YOU,
regardless of the pain that I have,
and will always carry with me.

I don’t know if I could ever look in your eyes and feel anything but sorrow
sorry for what you did and didn’t do
Sorry that you will never know me

but most important... sorry for what you've missed.

BILINGUAL

2008-07-16T20:48:00.011-04:00

I am LATINA, I write both in English and in Spanish. I decided to write something in Spanish for a change, but dont worry I also wrote it in English for those of you who can't read in spanish...Here I go enjoy!!!

Que solitario son los dias sin ti, y las noches fria sin tu calor

Es necesario decirte que sin ti no encuentro lo suficiente para sonreír,

El cuerpo se me paraliza,

Mis labios frió y el corazón derrotado.

Como lo haré, si tus palabras son las melodías en mi amanecer,

Te extraño profundamente.

Si, es necesario que sepas que mientras tú este lejano siempre estará cerca de mi corazón ....

My days are lonely and my nights are cold without the warmth of your body.

It is necessary for me to tell you that without you I find it insufficient to smile,

My body is paralyzed,

My lips are numb and the heart defeated.

How will I cope without the sound of your voice?

Your words are the melody in my dawn

I miss you deeply.

It is necessary that you know that while you are distant from me

You are always next to my heart.

YOU AND I

2008-07-08T22:23:00.005-04:00

What would I do if I did not have you in my life?

This moment

Right here

Right now

You and I

Means everything to me.

If love means to be without you, I rather not love at all

I swallow the poison, death will be my companion, if it means

That you and I would unite in another life.

This moment

Right here

Right now

You and I

Is the real thing

Love, undeniable love, felt by the words said and unsaid

An image purified by no deception, I love and love will become me.

You are the chosen one, the heart does not lie

This moment

Right here

Right now

You and I

Means everything to me.

WORK

2008-07-07T14:51:00.004-04:00

Here I am once again; my desk is full of papers, my computer with different programs up and running, and my mind is blank. I feel numb and uninspired, WHY!!!!!
I have all this work to do.

HA! I more willingly would be in the beach with a martini or a margarita in my hand followed by a view to die for.
You see, you can’t just go to any beach; you have to go to South Beach; where not only is the water crystal blue, but the people are beautiful as well, hey that is where I am laying half naked.

Oh great, a reminder just popped up, meeting in half an hour. So here I am once again; my desk is still full of papers and my computer going crazy. Oh well…

WHAT'S DIFFICULT!!!!!!!

2008-07-01T23:29:00.006-04:00

IT IS NOT DIFFICULT TO LOVE;
IT IS DIFFICULT BEING WITHOUT THE ONE YOU LOVE!!!!!!

THE LAST SONG

2008-07-01T22:26:00.004-04:00

Can we dance to the last song of the night? Look into my eyes; as you hold me tenderly, Don't let go I have fallen in love with you tonight as we dance to the last song You too will know it.
Breathing deeply, my nerves taking over me do you feel it? The way we move and your touch so heavenly.
Motionless on the crowded floor looking at you without interruptions. I love you, can you hear me, and I love you I said. Then I wake and you are not there.

THE LETTER

2008-07-01T21:41:00.006-04:00

Dear Heart,

I know that our love cannot be,
This forbidden love has no meaning to others, but to me it means the world.
How can I give you up?
We're miles apart,
This empty feeling and The telephone conversations keep me cold at night. When I need you I close my eyes,
I'm blind to the world but there you are in the depths of my mind.
I feel love and my heart dies slowly.
The heartbeat is fading away with each word that is said.
I feel my fingers and remember running them through your hair as a child. How do you get over something that never began?
I know our love cannot be,
This forbidden love has no meaning to others, but to me it means the world
You and I united for life and parted by circumstances

LESSON LEARN

2008-06-26T21:16:00.001-04:00

I don’t like to smoke, well- I do a little. I will light up a cigarette on occasions, especially when I’m stressed beyond my own comprehension. I was a heavy smoker and what I call heavy smoking was a puff or two, maybe three, then dispose of the cigarette.

I started smoking at an early age; I was 11 going on twelve when it all began. I loved the way I felt, it was great, and of course I felt so grown. I was a woman (a woman scared to kiss a boy because I thought I would get pregnant. hee hee).

That was until my best friend, my other friend and I got caught...OMG…were we in trouble!!!

My mom was so disappointed in me; I felt horrible, (“it could also have been the beating my mom gave me.”) Anyway I was grounded for the whole summer. My best friend was sent to a nun camp and the other wench was outside the next day, waving hi. Can you believe it, waving hi, smiling like nothing ever happened? Yeah, like I really want to be her friend now…trader of the worst kind!!!!

So you think that I would have learned my lesson on that summer of 83, but no, I didn’t. What I did learn was that girls with extremely big foreheads were NOT trustworthy…

LOVE STORY(THE PAST)

2008-06-25T22:18:00.006-04:00

Ashley sat by the window looking at the scenery, it was cold out and it looked as if it was going to snow. She had to see Nick, she needed to explain to him her reasons for leaving and that she still loved him. Nick did not want to see her and she could not blame him. “I need to find a way to see him,” she thought.

Carrie was on the phone when Nick grabbed her from behind. She stopped him before things got out of hands; he sat down, pouting like a child and Carrie smiled at him and continued her conversation. Nick stared at her from behind. He liked what he saw and desire rushed through his body -he wiped his forehead and sighed.

Nick arrives back at his office to see the light on his answering machine on; he ignores the light on the answering machine and deletes all of the messages. He is happy and he does not want anything or anyone to damper his mood. “Nick,” a voice said from behind him. He stood there; he could not, nor wanted to, turn around. He recognized the voice. “Ashley,” he said. He turned, not wanting to see her, his heart was pounding, wanting to escape his chest. “What are you doing here, Ashley, you should have known not to come!” He finally saw her, nothing about her has changed and he felt the hole in his heart and the pain that he tried so hard to get away from resurfaced as if it was yesterday. “Nick, I’m sorry if I am here unannounced but you wouldn’t see me. I’m in town for a while and I needed to see you.” “Ashley, please go!”

Ashley walked out, she felt the tears burning her eyes - she expected his reaction. The look in his eyes, the pain, she never meant to hurt him. Ashley thought about the day she left, she had to leave if she had stayed. She knew that she would have married him and put her dreams on hold. In the end, the love she felt would have turned into resentment, but now she is ready for the life he wanted for them, but will he ever forgive her?

Carrie was drinking a glass of wine when Nick arrived, his face pale and by the way he looked, she knew something was wrong. “We need to talk, something happened today and I think you should know about it.” Carrie sat down, a look of concern on her face, “Nick, is everything alright with you?” Carrie was concerned; she has never seen Nick this way before. Nick told her everything that happened that afternoon. Carrie felt a sigh of relief. He is physically well and nothing was wrong at work. Nevertheless, she had bigger things to worry about now. Carrie was wondering what this meant, is her relationship in trouble now?

AVERAGE GIRL

2008-06-24T22:30:00.003-04:00

Do you see me, I mean, do you really see who I am?
I am not your average girl, I come with style.

I am my own my leader,

but NEVER a follower,

do I go to you for shelter,

no…

I am the wings spread above your heads,

I am your sanctuary.

Believe in me when I tell you

there is no other like me,

I shall stand tall harboring your every move.

I am the sun in your east,

The moon in your sky,

the north star that doesn’t fade and

the beating in your heart.

Do you see me, I mean, do you really see who I am?

I am the air that you breathe,

the one YOU worship.

But you see…I’m not your average girl, I come with style.

FORGOTTEN LOVE

2008-06-19T13:06:00.003-04:00

Haunted by the ghost of your love; as it anxiously waits in the dark of my solitude, keep me sane and aware for this eerie feeling won’t fade away.
Transcending in time, frozen by desire, yet disturbed with what no longer subsist.Holding on to a mere glimpse of hope wanting things to be, and I cant phantom the thought of the impossible. Chase me if that is your will; as for mine, it has taken its course, and as I journey through this ghostly fog the memory of yesterday becomes extinct.

THE NOTE BOOK!!! MY FAVORITE MOVIE...

2008-06-18T20:47:00.007-04:00

MY FAVORITE QUOTES FROM THIS MOVIE ARE AS FOLLOW...

"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever."

Noah (to Allie): "I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day."

"She had come back into his life like a sudden flame, blazing and streaming into his heart. Noah stayed up all night contemplating the certain agony he knew would be his if he were to lose her twice."

TRUE LOVE, THE KIND OF LOVE YOU CANT LIVE WITHOUT ONLY COMES ONCE IN A LIFE TIME...DON'T LET IT GO....

THE PRICE WE PAY

2008-06-18T20:14:00.009-04:00

I look out the window and the rain is pouring down, like money is pouring out of our pockets. I went to put gas in my car and I went blank- for a minute there I thought I was making a purchase of a pair of Manolo Blahnik. Then the smell brought me back to reality.

How can a country such as ours be doing so badly, "WE" the people, united, are far from being united?

What on earth can we do to improve our economy; advise us on what methods we should be taking, Corn oil, Canola oil come on… HELP!!! You’re killing us here.

I‘m going to vote, but I don’t know who I will choose, I am a democrat but after our last session hmm I’m not so sure, and if I go towards the republican party, look at where we are now.

Should I try something new, will that improve our situation?

God only knows.

Well in the mean time I need to keep saving for the Manolos I so dearly want, only if the gas prices let me.

LOVE STORY (WALK IN THE PARK)

2008-06-18T13:55:00.005-04:00

A week passed and Carrie was busy with all of the arrangements for Nick’s party. They had spoken maybe once or twice since they last saw each other but it was business. Carrie was confused and upset, but she was not about to ask him anything about that night. Nick was in his office when his secretary told him there was someone to see him. When he asked who it was, he made up some excuse - he did not want to see his visitor, “Ashley”. He stood in his office frozen, not able to move. The memories of their last night together came back to mind as if it was yesterday - he had asked Ashley to marry him - the next day she was gone.

He had to leave; he needed to clear his head. At that moment, Carrie too went for a walk. Nick was walking - his thoughts were about Ashley. He didn’t know what to do, he was angry and had many questions to ask her but was he ready to face her, ready to face a past he’s been trying to forget? He walked for hours, not realizing how late it was when he notices Carrie walking towards him. Carrie’s face went blank; the last person she wanted to run into was Nick. He was walking right towards her and her heart was beating fast, but she kept walking. Before she knew it, he was standing in front of her. “Hello Carrie.” Carrie looked at him and said “hello”. “Can we talk?” Nick asked her “Nick, if you want to talk about the ball, you can come by the office tomorrow morning, I have some things to take care of and it’s getting late.” Carrie replied. Carrie felt awkward; she was wondering what he wanted to talk about after what had happened between them. “Please Carrie; it will only take a minute.” Nick looked at Carrie, his eyes were damped. “Carrie, I want to apologize for the other night, I don’t know why I left the way I did, well actually I do know why I left. I was scared. Carrie, I have so many feelings running through my body, I do not know what to do. I think I am falling in love with you; it may sound crazy and maybe I am crazy for feeling this way; we’ve only known each other for a couple of weeks and with all that happened in my last relationship, I am freaked out! I have been driving myself crazy, not knowing what to do about us, about the feelings that I feel. I know that I love you, but am I ready? Can I trust you not to hurt me the way that Ashley did.” Carrie was there listening and crying because what he didn’t realize was that he had hurt her, that he did the same thing that Ashley had done. Nevertheless, she did not say a word - she just looked at his face full of agony and held him because she too had fallen in love with him. They sat in the park for awhile; they held hands and just sat there. The wind was cold but it did not matter because they had each other’s warmth to keep them warm and from that moment on, they knew that their life would never be the same.

LOVE

2008-06-17T16:27:00.003-04:00

Undress me slowly,

caress me gently,

entice me roughly, and

love me unconditionally.

TWO OF A KIND

2008-06-16T22:23:00.008-04:00

Friends come and go, like the seasons change before our eyes, taking a course of their own. You have always remained the same; loyal and a true friend.

This is to you, my one and only... sisters, till the end…

I have wondered about my surroundings, the people who have touched my heart and those who have managed to influence my life in any kind of way shape or form. I think about those who have helped me in my time of need and those who have been there through the good and bad times and never asked for anything in return.

The only person who came to mind was you…

I can honestly say that I have never had a friend like you; someone sincere with a loving heart, someone who will tell you the truth regardless of the pain it may cause you, but in the long run help you. A person you can honestly look in the eye and say; “This girl right here is my Best Friend I would give my heart and soul to her if she needed them”.

You know all there is to know about me, just like I know all there is to know about you. A novel written well,
you are my diary, the white pages that I write to, and the person I turn to when my day is clouded up with disaster or brighter than the sun above.

You are who I turned to when I have no hope left, when I feel that I can no longer go on, and the strength that holds me up and gives hope for a better tomorrow.

I love you so much it hurts to think that maybe one day you won’t be there; I don’t know what I’ll do without you. A friendship like ours is so hard to find, a bond so tight that nothing has ever come between our friendships and yes we fight like cats and dogs and and YES we disagree more than what we agree . But I love you. ALWAYS and forever...

Two old ladies sitting by a tree

Singing

Nursing homes are sweet, sweet, sweet

THE LAST BEAT

2008-06-16T22:11:00.013-04:00

How sweet; sweet are the words leaving your lips

Flowing smoothly in the air finding their way to me

Gently touching the eardrum and beating it till the last beat.

How beautiful; beautiful is the way you look into my eyes

Melting my heart with words unspoken

Soothing my soul and beating it till the last beat.

How sincere; sincere are the feeling rushing through my veins

Traveling inside of me, stopping and touching every part of my body

Paralyzing my heart and beating it till the last beat.

WORDS UNSPOKEN

2008-06-13T15:53:00.003-04:00

I reached for you and stumbled, your shadow mocks me, and the maze is getting longer.
Lost, unaware of the presence ahead, I fall and cry heartbreaking tears. Loneliness deprives me from seeing what is in front of me - the light.
Here I am, dragging myself through this vineyard of dead roses and the thorns, cutting right through me.

I was left with words unspoken. What was once a happy ending now bitter memory? As I removed the splinters that are now in my skin, I look back, the mockery a mere recollection of the forgotten. I see the light, I made it through the maze and to my surprise, and I am whole!

LOVE STORY(ASHLEY)

2008-06-11T21:06:00.003-04:00

Nick was looking at the crumbled piece of paper he had left on top of his desk, “What are you doing here? Why now and what do you want?” he thought. He kept pacing back and forward, not knowing what to do. He looked at the piece of paper again then threw it out. Nick was lost in thoughts. “She left me without a single explanation; she just packed up her things and left.” Nick went back to work but all he thought about was Ashley.

It was dark out when Nick looked out the window. He was tired, had the worst headache imaginable, and hungry. Nick picked up the phone and to his surprise, Carrie was on the other end. “Hello, Nick, it’s Carrie.” “Carrie, I was just about to give you a call but from the looks of things, you beat me to it.” “You were?” Carrie asked. “Carrie, I was wondering if I could stop by and see you, if it is not too late, that is.” “No, of course not, come on by.” Carrie heard herself say.

Trying to look your best in less than twenty minutes suddenly became impossible. She picked up a pair of jeans, a white shirt and put on her sneakers. She did not want to be overdressed and did not want to look like she was going to sleep either. Carrie heard the doorbell - she stops in the hallway, looks at the image in the mirror, then proceeded towards the door.

“Hello Carrie,” Nick walked in and gave Carrie a gentle kiss on the cheek. “Hello Nick, how are you?” Carrie smiled “Would you like anything to drink?” she offered. “I brought us a bottle of champagne; I hope you do not mind.” “No, not at all, thank you, that was thoughtful of you. Let me get the glasses.” Carrie said as she walked towards the kitchen. From there she talked to Nick. “Nick, since the Ball is going to be a black and white affair, I thought that maybe you would like White Calla Lilies or Red Roses for the centerpieces, tall ones in a crystal vase. Now for the food; we can start with stuffed mushroom, shrimp, salmon, or whatever you would like us to serve and I thought that maybe.” Nick walked over to Carrie and placed his finger on her lips, “Do you mind if we talked about something else for a moment?” “I thought you wanted to discuss the plans for the party?” Carrie was nervous; she felt a lump in her throat and had to swallow. “It’s been a very long day and I just want to relax, let’s talk about us for a while.” Once again, they engaged in a conversation not about the reason for his visit but about them. This time Carrie learned about Ashley and she felt a bit of jealousy; she could not explain why, but she did. “I’m so sorry to hear that, I don’t think that I could have survived something like that.” Without realizing it, she placed her hand on top of his. He looked in her eyes - they sparkled like two stars in the night. He smiled at her and kissed her hand. He could not explain what was happening but he felt so at ease around Carrie, he felt whole. “Carrie, you are an amazing woman, I haven’t felt this way in a long time. When I’m with you, nothing seems to matter, I feel complete and alive.” Without another thought, he kisses her, with a desire so deep and beyond his control. He was hungry for her; he kissed her gently. Carrie laid there wanting him, willing to be his and not fighting what she too was feeling. “Carrie,’ Nick said as she looked at him, “I’m sorry, I can’t, and I have to go.” She stood there wondering what just happened.

On his way home, all Nick thought about was Carrie, she was special. It was an attraction that pulled at him and he knew that he could fall in love with her and that frightened him

MY OTHER HALF

2008-06-10T15:06:00.005-04:00

Growing up, all I ever wished for were sisters; I lived in a house full of men, and they drove me crazy…yes, I was Mom’s little girl but my heart ached for the company of a sister.
I would talk myself crazy, but never had an imaginary friend, I had my best friend but it wasn’t the same.
I knew that I had a family, apart from my mom’s, somewhere out there that I had never met, and my curiosity burned like crazy, and not knowing made me sad.
Every night I lay to sleep and how I wished upon that star up above. I’ll slowly speak to the heavens in the sky; to seek my other half’s tonight.

One day my prayers were answered, and one of my sisters I did meet, and I, only a child, felt at ease.
My experience was all but glamorous, sadness once again overtook my body for the hurt was horrendous, not because I would leave him behind, but the sister and the family that I had so longed for, and the others I have yet to meet.
I met my Aunts Edith and Olga, my Uncles Joe and Harry and their kids. I also met my cousin, Betsy who was on vacation and going back home. Do I remember them now? Not really - glimpse of things, but I was happy around them…only one stuck out like a sore thumb. Why, I have no clue, but he has been a part of my memory and heart since we first met - “Rene.”

Once again, I was back in my world and my brothers whom I love so dearly, and how I missed them.

Now, almost 24 yrs later and our paths have crossed once again; I feel so overwhelmed, feelings rushing through my body, so much at one time. I want to hide. That I do very well, push people away and put walls up are my specialties, but I have been waiting for this day for so long and now that is here, I ‘m scared. I’m scared, scared of rejection, not knowing sometimes is better than knowing.

You and I share a bond, we share roots; I am here because of you and I don’t want to walk away, but staying is so hard too. Do you know that I was there when my grandpa passed away? You were not aware of my agony or my presence, but I, very alert. I am stranger to you but regardless, I love you and sometimes I think “how can you love someone you don’t even know?” But I do, all of you.
My Titi Milly was the first one I met and WOW, I was blown away, it was like looking in the mirror, then my Titi Ruth, my sweet peace of heaven, my other Aunt Milta - a very beautiful woman - we have more catching up to do,. And I can’t forget the girls…RELATED, yes we are, crazy and exciting! WE are the Perez Girls and saving the best for last, my sister WENDY. I’m not one to show emotions and I wish you were here right now. You are everything I hoped for; beautiful, smart, and fun loving. You and I will never part, that I swear to you. I LOVE YOU. We were separated at birth, reunited as adults. Being around you just for a couple of hours meant the world to me, it was like time has not been stolen from me.

You are the ones that I crave for and forgive me if I have no compassion for him, he has taken everything away from me, robbed me from you all and I don’t ever think that I could forgive - the pain is greater than the mind and the heart has yet to learn that mistakes, yes, are made but not repeatedly. He knows what he did. God has planted you back in my life and there you will always remain….

Love has conquered after all.

LOVE STORY (DINNER FOR TWO)

2008-06-04T23:25:00.007-04:00

The next day Carrie walked into her office and was surprised to see the roses on the table. She picked up the note and it said; “if the roses were as beautiful as you, I would have a rose garden all around my house. Have dinner with me tonight. I have some ideas for the party and I want to share them with you.” She took the card, placed it on her lips and smiled, then picked up the phone.

It was a long and stressful day for Nick; it was meeting after meeting, all he wanted to do was sit down, relax and have a glass of scotch. He reached over for a glass when he then noticed the two messages. The first one was from Carrie - she thanked him for the flowers, but declined the dinner invitation. The next one blew him away. He was surprised but more than anything, hurt. He was not expecting to hear from this person ever again and his anger got the best of him.

Nick, not giving up, calls Carrie every day, “How are the plans going?” one day, “Do we have a meeting today?” another day. Carrie and Jessica both giggle and continue working. Late that evening Carrie was walking out of the office when Nick approaches her. He smiled and gave her a single rose and a note, then left, no words spoken. Another dinner proposal, this time she accepts.

It was seven-thirty when Carrie arrived. She walked into the waiting area when she noticed Nick walking towards her. His smiled lit up the room and he said” You look lovelier then I had imagined you to be.” He took her hand and escorted her to their table. She looked up at him, her eyes danced with excitement and she smiled in returned. Her heart was beating fast,” I need to keep my cool. Do not let the emotions that are running within me take charge, relax, breathe. C’mon Carrie, you can do this.” She thought.

Dinner went well. They talked for hours, about her business her interest and even about her childhood. Nick smiled as he studied her; he, as well, talked about his life, his business, his accomplishments, and his downfall. They laughed; danced, everyone around them could see the attraction sparks flew everywhere.

Nothing could have gone wrong - two worlds have combined into one. Who would have thought that they met weeks ago?

It was close to ten o’clock when he dropped her off. He walked her to the door and before she could say a word, he grabbed her and kissed her. She was out of breath but the desire was mutual. As she closed her eyes and enjoyed the moment, it was a moment she will never forget. Her heart leaped with joy and from that moment on she knew things between them would never be the same again.

The next morning Carrie did not want to get out of bed. She wanted her dream to go on. She thought about Nick and the wonderful evening they had shared. She smiled to herself but the smile faded just as fast. She just broke one of her own rules -- never mix business with pleasure, although she was excited about last night; she was disappointed too.

OUT OF AIR

2008-06-04T23:22:00.003-04:00

Have you ever loved someone so deeply it hurts your very soul, not knowing where this love will lead you to, but knowing that you will die without their presence? Love has knocked on my door a time or two, but never entering all the way, and now that it has entered, I am out of air.

I can’t speak for others, only myself, and I’m in love with the feeling bestowed upon me. Have I not known the power love grants I would be numb, confounded by the eerie feeling of loneliness.

Words, spoken softly, caressing my ear, as I envision us hand in hand, walking on the road of no return. Am I a dreamer for wanting candlelight and moonlight, am I foolish for wishing upon that star above…maybe…but who are you to rain on my parade?

I’m in love and you are the recipient, the chosen one. Who am I to declare war with my heart?

THE TRUTH

2008-06-03T23:13:00.006-04:00

I am tormented by the reality of the truth, also all the hearts that will be shattered. I carried this torch with me all of my life, so is it time for the fire to die? I have cried endlessly; scared of my own shadow, devastated by dark, it has become a forbidden place for me.

I saw you and believe in miracles; I was forgotten, but found and now wishing that you were never in my life. Hate, such a strong word but I can’t find any other word to describe how I feel. My heart broken, in two, innocence lost along the journey of new beginnings, making me who I am today.

LOVE STORY (THE MEETING)

2008-05-28T21:34:00.006-04:00

Chapter one

The sun was shinning but it made no difference. It was twenty degrees outside and the wind cut right through you. I was on my way into the office when I received a call from Jessica that my nine o’clock appointment was running late. Good, I thought, that gives me enough time to grab a muffin. Jessica walked into my office and could not help herself and laughs; she stares at the welt on my head - “it gets bigger by the minute” Jessica said. I grab my handbag and pull out my compact. I looked at the image in the mirror and saw the horror in my eyes. “Oh my!” were the words that came out of my mouth, “Mr. Andrews will be here shortly and I look like I’m growing an antler - Great!” I was going through some papers when Jessica announced that Mr. Andrews had arrived. “Give me a minute, and then let him in.”

“Good morning Miss Peters.” said the voice from behind her. As she turns around to greet her client, she saw the eyes - the same eyes she saw that Sunday afternoon. “You!” she said. They both knew who the other one was. She was the girl he had knocked down by the market place. “I can’t believe it’s you,” he said, “I’ve thought about you constantly, even walked by the market place but never saw you again. Did I do that?” Carrie was motionless - she could not believe it was him. She could not breathe, could not talk but she had to make a motion. Carrie never answerd his question, she did not see the point in it. Carrie replied with a smile. “Let’s sit down; we have a lot to discuss.”

It was a quarter after two when Nick left the office and Carrie was exhausted.

Once the meeting ended, Jessica walked into the office. They went over some of the requirements that Mr. Andrews had in mind. “Jess, call Andy and see what he will have available for the month of June. We also have to” “Carrie” Jessica interrupted her.

“What did you think of Mr. Andrews?” Carrie smiled “What is there to think of” she winked and walked out of the office. “C’mon Carrie tell me, I noticed the way he looked at you, and you also forgot to mention that you two knew each other.” “Correction, he knocked me down two months ago - that doesn’t mean we know each other.” Carrie continues with her reading and ignored Jessica; she knows just what to say and do, to get to her sister. A few minutes later Carrie heard the door close and looked up to see Mr. Andrews standing in front of her. “Mr. Andrews, is there anything else that I can do for you?” Carrie asked, “Indeed you can” he replied, “Will you have dinner with me tonight?” “Mr. Andrews,” “Nick, call me Nick,” he replied. “Mr. Andrews, I don’t think that would be a good idea.” Carrie, not impressed by his dinner proposal, excused herself and walked him out.

Carrie went back to what she was doing but in the back of her mind, her thoughts were about Nick.

THE KISS

2008-05-27T21:16:00.004-04:00

Mystical and enchanted was the warmth of your lips on that cold December evening.

I saw you in the crowded room; you danced the night away, as I watched from a distance, the fog intense and the music pumping.

My hands numb; my heart racing, as you drew closer, smiled and walked in the other direction.

You, there with your friends, and me among mine; I want you closer as the end reaches its climax. I turned to leave when a tap on the shoulder I feel.

You asked, I provided, and so this was the first kiss.

Mystical and enchanted was the warmth of your lips on that cold December night.

SEX AND THE CITY

2008-05-27T21:14:00.004-04:00

"Sex in the City", the movie, is in theaters May 30 and I am in pain;” My favorite show in the entire world and I’m going to miss the opening day. I want to YELL!!! Why do I have to move on that weekend, I mean I had no idea, if I did I would never arrange to move on the weekend of the 30^th and so I cry with an empty Cosmo on my hands.

I know it's no big deal, but to me it is, “SEX IN THE CITY “is my bible, every girl should own all the seasons. Not only is the wardrobe to die for, but the “MEN” WOW the men of Sex in the City giving you a permanent orgasm, especially Mr. BIG, talk about MR Big I’ve always wondered about the name… HMM I love the imagination.

Anyways!!!

To all of you who a re going to watch the movie, if you hear sudden whimpers in the air, that would be me...

WHY

2008-05-27T21:06:00.004-04:00

I fell a long time ago, not realizing that the impact was permanent.

I, so young and naive, and just like every child thinking that the worst was never to come.

It hid in the depths of my soul, lurking, taunting me, and I, not aware of how strong it was, paid any attention. I refused to see it, I refused to search for it and now it is here staring right at me, what am I to do? I question myself but have no answers to give, the pain so fresh in the mind and yet I thought forgotten. WHY???

So here I am looking back at the wounds inflicted upon and can’t help but wonder has someone else fallen and if so, how deep are their wounds?

BREATHLESS

2008-05-23T20:02:00.008-04:00

Mesmerized by the scent of you has me in a trance; I'm rapt around the image of your body and the yearning that makes me cry. Give it to me, over and over again, isolated by desire and the passion that burns inside, rushing through my thighs. Oh how I long for the warmth of your flesh, and drowning by the juice of your fountain, harder and harder, the wounds in your back a sign of perfection as you leave me here content; breathless wanting more, my appetite increasing as I ride in for more.

AWAKEN

2008-05-21T21:37:00.005-04:00

I see you perfectly clear, and my mind wonders to places beyond my control, further than ecstasy. I am sailing blissfully, in this place called Neverland, the stillness of my heart content by your presence.

Yes, I know that you are a figment of my imagination and yes, I know that this is a dream, but love does not know the difference and my heart is at ease.

Take me in your arms and rock me gently, my love, but please don’t awaken me, let me sleep forever, and forever yours I will be, eternally, without an end.

HAPPY HOUR

2008-05-21T21:33:00.001-04:00

I went out with some co workers;
I had a few drinks, well maybe a few too many,
But in my state of mind I think I behaved somewhat how I should have behaved.
I was a little out of control,
But totally in control of my actions.

Did I act like a fool, maybe, but a classy fool?
Was I affectionate, but of course, like I’ve always said “Brenda Judy is a lovable person?”
And if I am surrounded by my friends and loved ones, I will party like its 1999.

Now, what do you when you have a loose cannon among your group, someone who tends to go over the limit, not intentionally, but can’t control themselves or their actions, what then?

Do you continue partying, do you walk over to them and try to make them comprehend, do you slap the person, or simply forget to send him/her the next e-mail invite.

Well as for me I know I will get that e-mail invite but will I attend the next time not sure.

CALORIES

2008-05-21T21:31:00.003-04:00

I am starving, I’m starving but what should I eat? Everyone around me is counting calories, looking for their carbs intake. I know we should all eat healthy, but hearing about it everyday hurts my ears.

I’m Latina, so you know that I love my rice and beans. I could eat it constantly, arroz con habichuelas (rice and beans) for me, with platanitos and a juicy filet of chicken. “WOW” just the thought of the food makes my mouth water; so really, do you think I have the time or mentality to count my carbs or calorie? “Yeah, right” my tummy has a mind of its own.

I believe that as long as your food portions are small and you don’t go over the top, you can indulge yourself with the simple pleasures of life. Don’t deny yourself the frappachino, just don’t get the extra large cup.

LOVE STORY-THE BEGINNING

2008-05-21T11:07:00.008-04:00

I remember the day we met; it was not your usual fairy tale story; girl meets boy, girl falls in love with boy, it was more than that. I knew right at that moment that he was the one, the one I have been waiting for. He would be the one that would embrace my heart like no other, but also tear it apart.

It was a cold November afternoon; I was out running some errands when out of nowhere he appeared. I fell flat on the floor and my bags were all over the place. My head was pounding and I was furious, never looking at the stranger who had knocked me down. When finally I stood up and turned to face him, his beauty blew me away. His eyes were the color of the sky; soothing, inviting and mesmerizing, he had gorgeous black hair and a smile that would weak anyone’s heart. He helped me up, apologized, took my hand gave it a gentle squeezed and then left, I just stood there frozen and for the first time I was lost for words.

ABOUT ME

2008-05-21T11:05:00.003-04:00

I have a passion for writing, I am a working mother of 3 (all boys) and a wife.
Writing is my sanctuary and if you let me I will take you places beyond your imagination...

Once a week I will post bits and peaces of my story. I hope you enjoy reading it,as much as I did writing it.

MILES APART

2008-05-21T11:00:00.004-04:00

Here I am, and there you are, miles apart.
I find it hard to breathe and the air thickens.
My heart weakens, fading into the eclipse of the unknown.
A forbidden desire; permissible by the audience of our existence.
As I drown longing for you, but where, where is that love that I so wish for?
I close my eyes, I embrace myself, wanting and craving you near.
But for how long, this hunger is eating me up and I not wanting to escape the passion of your existence, will be devoured by my own longing for you.
I feel you within my soul and this obsession won’t subside, My body aches and the throbbing of my inner thighs deafening.
Boom- boom fascinated by the overwhelming feeling of love and I burst, the orgasm mesmerizing yet not satisfying.
Once again reality strikes me gently.Here I am, and there you are, miles apart.

RED SNAPPER

2008-05-21T10:58:00.002-04:00

It is dark out tonight; the only light comes from the moon above. He walks and walks fear over takes his body and he shivers from the cold. Snap, crackle, he hears from a distance as he moves faster. The noises become louder, deafening his ear, he begins to run and stumble on a tree branch, whatever was following him is now standing over him. The look in his eyes, wide with fear, it is the red snapper, the same red snapper from his dreams, haunting and taunting him laughing with an evil laugh. HA- HA- HA…

Whatever happened to the stranger is still a mystery; the Red Snapper is still out there, waiting for her next victim. So beware, you’re not safe in the Cherry woods, it is haunted. If you listen carefully you will hear cries in the night. Moaning and howling waiting for the next one to arrive.

THE TRUTH...PLAIN AND SIMPLE

2008-05-21T10:55:00.001-04:00

What do you do when you are in your work environment and you happen to walk by a cubicle and OMG! - it smells like someone died in there “literally”?

It happened to me; I was walking by a cubicle today and I almost dropped dead - the smell was unbearable. For a minute there, I went blank, sniffing all over the place, I almost passed out. “WOW” I thought to myself, not believing my nose.

So I wasn’t really sure what to do at that time; I mean, who am I to tell someone else that Dr Sholes is only a market away, even better, Zest “Not Clean until Zestfully Clean”. Do I drop a note? Do I e-mail the person, and if so, how do I even begin writing an e-mail like that one?

Dear so-so,I happened to walk by your area and smelled something fishy and it wasn’t your lunch! Come on, now, really, how do you address a delicate matter such as BODY/FOOT odor? Well as for me, I will walk in the other direction until I think of a nice way to tell someone that they stink -- plain and simple -- they stink!

THE END

2008-05-17T21:13:00.001-04:00

My heart melts with the thought of you,
it weakens in a way that it has never done before.
Look into my soul it has your name written all over it.
I love you so sincere; you will never know the passion that I feel when you kiss me, and you will never know the kind of love that I feel for you.
Nothing that you do will ever change my mind about us.
All I hear is what my heart is telling me; it leads me to you, this is real and I have never felt so sure about us, you are the one, the only one that I need.
I love you regardless of the pain, of the tears.
If you only knew how dear and special you are to me, you are my life, my world and my best friend.

Till the end.

BROKEN HEART

2008-05-17T20:44:00.001-04:00

How do you mend a broken heart?

When your tears are your only companion and your heart is devastated not comprehending what just happened.

Confusion over take the mind and depression waits in the midst of all the fog.

I loved you blindly gave you all I had to give.

Words of love so sweet and venomous to the soul,

You promised me the world,

You promise me the stars and

Yet I wait,

Instead I got my world torn upside down and

The stars were a figment of the imagination.

Love so blind and painful:

So how do you mend a broken heart?

When mine was yanked and rip of my chest with out a care.

THE MEANING OF FRIENDS

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The meaning of the word FRIEND

A person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard.

A person who gives assistance; patron; supporter

A person who is on good terms with another; a person who is not hostile

One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement

A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade

A person whom one knows; an acquaintance

A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts

So many meanings for the word FRIEND, yet so little people in my life fits all the description above.

I can count with one hand the amount of genuine friends that I have, not many.

Then I have my “so called friends” the ones who think that they are friends, in reality are only in my life because they feel obligated by some kind of attachment.

You have your childhood friends, they will always be a part of your life, but the friendship diminishes and weakens with the years to come and maturity.

You have your friends from high school/college, friendships that have gone through hangovers to heart breaks. Only a few of us are lucky to still have them in our life because once again friendship diminishes and weakens with the years to come and maturity.

You have the friends you meet along the way, you bond with some, connect in a way that you never dreamt possible. Then those of you who pretend to be a friend and have the least knowledge of what a true friendship consist of, one minute you’re white then you’re black.

For those of you who are my dearest and love friends, my heart and door are always open to you. For those of you who’s idea of friendship consist of a warm hello to your face and what a bitch when you walk away, I have my dog for that.

I learn each day the value of my dearest friends; you are my sisters, my packs. Just like I also know that the grass looks greener on the other side, but from where they are standing it is also greener on my side.

THE SOUND OF LOVE

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Dancing to the rhythm of our hearts,

The pounding, the beating

The sexual healing.

Our bodies in twins,

Devour me with your tender lips.

Unchain these legs that long to spread some love,

Hold me tenderly, yet fiercely

Don’t let love subside.

Dancing wildly to the sound of our moans

Becoming one, drowning our souls

The melody has slowed it paced;

The calm awaits our presence,

Sleep takes over our body

Energizing it for the next band to play.