Thursday, December 11, 2008


I am kind, sweet and the one you dream about…

I am the one you long for,

The one you want to hate and

The one you can’t live without.

I am your past,

Present and


The one who got away,

The one who you hold tightly,

The one who loves unconditionally and

The one who gives of herself completely

I am kind, sweet and the one you dream about…

Monday, November 3, 2008


If I were your girl I would never leave your side.
Two essences meant to be…
You’re my oxygen and
I weaken without your presence.
I go crazy when you are not around and
When you are in sight my heart undresses my soul.
The perfume that lingers in the air
Paralyzes me and
I’m stuck in the depth of reality and fantasy.
Oh dear you,
Come to me,
Feel within me,
The magical emotion of you and me
Spinning in my head
I remember loving you in 1988 and
The deception that followed
But yet I love and still love…
If I were your girl I would never leave your side.
I feel high and
The thrill of you
Once again
Rushes through my blood stream
Together we shall feel
The addiction that love has to offer
The needing and
Wanting and
Believe me you will want more.
Only if I were your girl

Thursday, October 30, 2008


I can’t resist the thought of your touch
The longing and teasing
The sudden urge burning deep inside and
The need that only you can provide
Envision my finger tips,
Caressing every inch of your body,
Exploring your deadly sins…
Your lips
On my lips and
Your thighs within mine
The beating of my heart
Pounding, throbbing
As ecstasy waits
I can’t resist the thought of your touch
As your hand slide up my legs reaching
Like a venomous snake creeping and creeping
Attacking and devouring its prey.
“Satisfaction” the only word that can describe
As I savor each touch and the yearning subsides.
Oh, but there it is; the hunger all over again…

Monday, October 20, 2008


Tell me that I am everything you need,
Tell me that your heart also skips a beat at the sound of my name.
Tell me the words that I long to hear from you “I love you.”
Tell me I am all you ever needed.

In this world where love is so unsure and tarnish by deception; I still have hope that you are in deed the one.

When I think of you I find it hard to believe how you have pulled me under, under loves spell and I can’t find the right words to say.

When you’re around I mumble and stumble… I have fallen, deeper than ever imagine.


Tell me that I am everything you need,
Tell me that your heart also skips a beat at the sound of my name.
Tell me the words that I long to hear from you “I love you.”
Tell me I am all you ever needed.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008


Here I am in the midst of the fog and

the rain is pouring down hard and rigid,

is it the last downpour.

I look up and

darkness fills the skies

my eyes are


my body drench and

the sweetest desire runs through me

like the lighting in the sky…


I lay there cold

my body trembles and

the rain won’t calm and

my heart beats

faster and


The clouds groan

as if making love and

I can’t contain myself

I want more….

Saturday, September 27, 2008


Why do things happen
things that are in your control
oh so you thought…
but they’re not.
Things that you can't explain...
words misinterpreted and the mind
how it plays with the insecurities and
you wonder some more and
the words that were spoken
echoes in the depth of your soul and
the hate getting stronger and
the heart weakening with sorrow.
I am
who I am

another victim of circumstances and
you sit there judging without knowing.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008


I was hoping to find tranquility;

instead my head is going crazy.

I write

just to write, because I love it,

it beats talking to myself.

I mean everyone talks to themselves,

once in a while

but when you start answering yourself


Ever since I could remember

writing has been my passion;

but lately I can’t concentrate,

my thoughts are elsewhere,

it’s like my heart is not 100 % there,

I feel incomplete.

The voices

that once echo within me

are fading,

vanishing into that void

we call solitude,

and I can’t help but cry.

I miss you,

and although

I know this is the end

I can’t help but wonder

was there ever a beginning.

So I will pick up my pen and

I will write

as long

as I am able to write.

Saturday, August 30, 2008


Your stomach knots up and

your world spins in different directions.

You anticipate your next meeting and

the words that long to come out are not what you have rehearsed.


that is what happens when it knocks on your door.

To see him from the distance and

the sound of his voice transcends you to another life.

The stars in your eyes shine brighter and

the butterflies within you

wanting to burst out.


that is what happens when it knocks on your door.

Friday, August 29, 2008


Rain drops on my window sill

drip, drop, drip, drop and

the sound is so deafening to my ears

weakening my knees and

the fear of what is yet to come

My heart is pounding

as the end reaches its final roar.

The rain is not fading like I thought,

but regaining its strength,

getting ready

to demolish the skies.

The fog is thick,


cold and


as the terror waits in the abyss of the night.

Wednesday, August 13, 2008


Lately I’ve been uninspired

my love for writing not diminishing but placed on hold.

I’ve had so much on my plate;

but now I’m back and so I write this about you,

my number 1# fan.

You know who you are.

In the little time we’ve known each other

I’ve grown to love you

I love you more than you will ever know

and the years feel like a blur.

I will miss you,

everything about you.

I will miss your laughter,
your smile,

the stories,

the cooking

and I can’t forget

the cocktails (LOL).

You came into my life like a breath of fresh air and I will breathe you in as long as I have the ability to do so.

I love you…you know who you are


Friday, July 25, 2008


I’m going insane…I want to yank my hair

The men in my life are driving me to drink

Really, I am a working wife and mother of 3, ALL BOYS “may I say”.

For once I would love to experience this...

get home and be pampered...

go straight to the bathroom

have your bath full of bubbles and

just sit there and relax. “Calgon take me away”

Yeah sweet thoughts interrupted by

“When is dinner, mom do I have clean uniforms, honey have you seen the remote control”


But oh wait, it’s not possible,

A mothers job never ends.

We come home from a hard day at work,

To cook, get the kids ready for the next day, maybe do some laundry and

By the time you take a minute for yourself you are too tired and have no energy for anything else and

I mean ANYTHING else.

So please if I want a glass of wine instead of the cup of tea,

I think I deserve it; after all, my job is 24/7

I’m always on duty, on call,

But never out of SERVICE

Thursday, July 24, 2008


Do you feel the love dying to burst out?

Tell me

is it me you see when your lips touches hers

When you explore her body

is it my body you hunger for.

The sensation and the thrill of what could be

deceive with what is.

Do you feel my fingertips

gently enticing,

caressing you all over.

Tell me

is it me you feel

when the bodies are tangled up as one

When you drink and taste her

is my thighs you yearn for.

Do you feel the love dying to burst out?

The sensation and thrill of what could be deceive by what is…

Tuesday, July 22, 2008


The bar full and the DJ is off the hook tonight

Ahora Es" is playing by Wisin y Yandel, I love them… off to the dance I floor I go

Dancing to the beat

Transcending into another world

I own the dance floor

Mine to do as I please

My eyes close,

My hip swinging from side to side

I hold the glass of martini and the night is mine to hold.

My body moving like a snake

My hair wild, all over the place

I’m in control, in control of you

Hypnotizing you with every move


Dancing like never before.

Monday, July 21, 2008


Long ago you broke my heart
my dreams of who I thought you to be
destroyed by the knowledge of who you really were
and so I come about.

I don’t know much about you
I never really knew you at all
and here I am all grown up and I wonder
what my life would have been if I had you in it
from the beginning of my existence.

I look in from the outside
I see that circle that I’m not a part of and should be
and sadness fills the empty void that you created.

Little by little I reach out to those who are a part of me
and I’m trying to build on the foundation that was never established
the one that was lost in time
I want to belong but feel like an outcast.

I want you to know that I FORGIVE YOU,
regardless of the pain that I have,
and will always carry with me.

I don’t know if I could ever look in your eyes and feel anything but sorrow
sorry for what you did and didn’t do
Sorry that you will never know me

but most important... sorry for what you've missed.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008


I am LATINA, I write both in English and in Spanish. I decided to write something in Spanish for a change, but dont worry I also wrote it in English for those of you who can't read in spanish...Here I go enjoy!!!

Que solitario son los dias sin ti, y las noches fria sin tu calor

Es necesario decirte que sin ti no encuentro lo suficiente para sonreír,

El cuerpo se me paraliza,

Mis labios frió y el corazón derrotado.

Como lo haré, si tus palabras son las melodías en mi amanecer,

Te extraño profundamente.

Si, es necesario que sepas que mientras tú este lejano siempre estará cerca de mi corazón ....

My days are lonely and my nights are cold without the warmth of your body.

It is necessary for me to tell you that without you I find it insufficient to smile,

My body is paralyzed,

My lips are numb and the heart defeated.

How will I cope without the sound of your voice?

Your words are the melody in my dawn

I miss you deeply.

It is necessary that you know that while you are distant from me

You are always next to my heart.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008


What would I do if I did not have you in my life?

This moment

Right here

Right now

You and I

Means everything to me.

If love means to be without you, I rather not love at all

I swallow the poison, death will be my companion, if it means

That you and I would unite in another life.

This moment

Right here

Right now

You and I

Is the real thing

Love, undeniable love, felt by the words said and unsaid

An image purified by no deception, I love and love will become me.

You are the chosen one, the heart does not lie

This moment

Right here

Right now

You and I

Means everything to me.

Monday, July 7, 2008


Here I am once again; my desk is full of papers, my computer with different programs up and running, and my mind is blank. I feel numb and uninspired, WHY!!!!!
I have all this work to do.

HA! I more willingly would be in the beach with a martini or a margarita in my hand followed by a view to die for.
You see, you can’t just go to any beach; you have to go to South Beach; where not only is the water crystal blue, but the people are beautiful as well, hey that is where I am laying half naked.

Oh great, a reminder just popped up, meeting in half an hour. So here I am once again; my desk is still full of papers and my computer going crazy. Oh well…

Tuesday, July 1, 2008





Can we dance to the last song of the night? Look into my eyes; as you hold me tenderly, Don't let go I have fallen in love with you tonight as we dance to the last song You too will know it.
Breathing deeply, my nerves taking over me do you feel it? The way we move and your touch so heavenly.
Motionless on the crowded floor looking at you without interruptions. I love you, can you hear me, and I love you I said. Then I wake and you are not there.


Dear Heart,

I know that our love cannot be,

This forbidden love has no meaning to others, but to me it means the world.
How can I give you up?

We're miles apart,

This empty feeling and
The telephone conversations keep me cold at night. When I need you I close my eyes,
I'm blind to the world but there you are in the depths of my mind.

I feel love and my heart dies slowly.
The heartbeat is fading away with each word that is said.

I feel my fingers and remember running them through your hair as a child.
How do you get over something that never began?
I know our love cannot be,

This forbidden love has no meaning to others
, but to me it means the world
You and I united for life and parted by circumstances

Thursday, June 26, 2008


I don’t like to smoke, well- I do a little. I will light up a cigarette on occasions, especially when I’m stressed beyond my own comprehension. I was a heavy smoker and what I call heavy smoking was a puff or two, maybe three, then dispose of the cigarette.

I started smoking at an early age; I was 11 going on twelve when it all began. I loved the way I felt, it was great, and of course I felt so grown. I was a woman (a woman scared to kiss a boy because I thought I would get pregnant. hee hee).

That was until my best friend, my other friend and I got caught...OMG…were we in trouble!!!

My mom was so disappointed in me; I felt horrible, (“it could also have been the beating my mom gave me.”) Anyway I was grounded for the whole summer. My best friend was sent to a nun camp and the other wench was outside the next day, waving hi. Can you believe it, waving hi, smiling like nothing ever happened? Yeah, like I really want to be her friend now…trader of the worst kind!!!!

So you think that I would have learned my lesson on that summer of 83, but no, I didn’t. What I did learn was that girls with extremely big foreheads were NOT trustworthy…

Wednesday, June 25, 2008


Ashley sat by the window looking at the scenery, it was cold out and it looked as if it was going to snow. She had to see Nick, she needed to explain to him her reasons for leaving and that she still loved him. Nick did not want to see her and she could not blame him. “I need to find a way to see him,” she thought.

Carrie was on the phone when Nick grabbed her from behind. She stopped him before things got out of hands; he sat down, pouting like a child and Carrie smiled at him and continued her conversation. Nick stared at her from behind. He liked what he saw and desire rushed through his body -he wiped his forehead and sighed.

Nick arrives back at his office to see the light on his answering machine on; he ignores the light on the answering machine and deletes all of the messages. He is happy and he does not want anything or anyone to damper his mood. “Nick,” a voice said from behind him. He stood there; he could not, nor wanted to, turn around. He recognized the voice. “Ashley,” he said. He turned, not wanting to see her, his heart was pounding, wanting to escape his chest. “What are you doing here, Ashley, you should have known not to come!” He finally saw her, nothing about her has changed and he felt the hole in his heart and the pain that he tried so hard to get away from resurfaced as if it was yesterday. “Nick, I’m sorry if I am here unannounced but you wouldn’t see me. I’m in town for a while and I needed to see you.” “Ashley, please go!”

Ashley walked out, she felt the tears burning her eyes - she expected his reaction. The look in his eyes, the pain, she never meant to hurt him. Ashley thought about the day she left, she had to leave if she had stayed. She knew that she would have married him and put her dreams on hold. In the end, the love she felt would have turned into resentment, but now she is ready for the life he wanted for them, but will he ever forgive her?

Carrie was drinking a glass of wine when Nick arrived, his face pale and by the way he looked, she knew something was wrong. “We need to talk, something happened today and I think you should know about it.” Carrie sat down, a look of concern on her face, “Nick, is everything alright with you?” Carrie was concerned; she has never seen Nick this way before. Nick told her everything that happened that afternoon. Carrie felt a sigh of relief. He is physically well and nothing was wrong at work. Nevertheless, she had bigger things to worry about now. Carrie was wondering what this meant, is her relationship in trouble now?

Tuesday, June 24, 2008


Do you see me, I mean, do you really see who I am?
I am not your average girl, I come with style.

I am my own my leader,

but NEVER a follower,

do I go to you for shelter,


I am the wings spread above your heads,

I am your sanctuary.

Believe in me when I tell you

there is no other like me,

I shall stand tall harboring your every move.

I am the sun in your east,

The moon in your sky,

the north star that doesn’t fade and

the beating in your heart.

Do you see me, I mean, do you really see who I am?

I am the air that you breathe,

the one YOU worship.

But you see…I’m not your average girl, I come with style.

Thursday, June 19, 2008


Haunted by the ghost of your love; as it anxiously waits in the dark of my solitude, keep me sane and aware for this eerie feeling won’t fade away.
Transcending in time, frozen by desire, yet disturbed with what no longer subsist.Holding on to a mere glimpse of hope wanting things to be, and I cant phantom the thought of the impossible. Chase me if that is your will; as for mine, it has taken its course, and as I journey through this ghostly fog the memory of yesterday becomes extinct.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008



"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds. And that's what you've given me. That's what I'd hoped to give you forever."

Noah (to Allie): "I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day."

"She had come back into his life like a sudden flame, blazing and streaming into his heart. Noah stayed up all night contemplating the certain agony he knew would be his if he were to lose her twice."



I look out the window and the rain is pouring down, like money is pouring out of our pockets. I went to put gas in my car and I went blank- for a minute there I thought I was making a purchase of a pair of Manolo Blahnik. Then the smell brought me back to reality.

How can a country such as ours be doing so badly, "WE" the people, united, are far from being united?

What on earth can we do to improve our economy; advise us on what methods we should be taking, Corn oil, Canola oil come on… HELP!!! You’re killing us here.

I‘m going to vote, but I don’t know who I will choose, I am a democrat but after our last session hmm I’m not so sure, and if I go towards the republican party, look at where we are now.

Should I try something new, will that improve our situation?

God only knows.

Well in the mean time I need to keep saving for the Manolos I so dearly want, only if the gas prices let me.


A week passed and Carrie was busy with all of the arrangements for Nick’s party. They had spoken maybe once or twice since they last saw each other but it was business. Carrie was confused and upset, but she was not about to ask him anything about that night. Nick was in his office when his secretary told him there was someone to see him. When he asked who it was, he made up some excuse - he did not want to see his visitor, “Ashley”. He stood in his office frozen, not able to move. The memories of their last night together came back to mind as if it was yesterday - he had asked Ashley to marry him - the next day she was gone.

He had to leave; he needed to clear his head. At that moment, Carrie too went for a walk. Nick was walking - his thoughts were about Ashley. He didn’t know what to do, he was angry and had many questions to ask her but was he ready to face her, ready to face a past he’s been trying to forget? He walked for hours, not realizing how late it was when he notices Carrie walking towards him. Carrie’s face went blank; the last person she wanted to run into was Nick. He was walking right towards her and her heart was beating fast, but she kept walking. Before she knew it, he was standing in front of her. “Hello Carrie.” Carrie looked at him and said “hello”. “Can we talk?” Nick asked her “Nick, if you want to talk about the ball, you can come by the office tomorrow morning, I have some things to take care of and it’s getting late.” Carrie replied. Carrie felt awkward; she was wondering what he wanted to talk about after what had happened between them. “Please Carrie; it will only take a minute.” Nick looked at Carrie, his eyes were damped. “Carrie, I want to apologize for the other night, I don’t know why I left the way I did, well actually I do know why I left. I was scared. Carrie, I have so many feelings running through my body, I do not know what to do. I think I am falling in love with you; it may sound crazy and maybe I am crazy for feeling this way; we’ve only known each other for a couple of weeks and with all that happened in my last relationship, I am freaked out! I have been driving myself crazy, not knowing what to do about us, about the feelings that I feel. I know that I love you, but am I ready? Can I trust you not to hurt me the way that Ashley did.” Carrie was there listening and crying because what he didn’t realize was that he had hurt her, that he did the same thing that Ashley had done. Nevertheless, she did not say a word - she just looked at his face full of agony and held him because she too had fallen in love with him. They sat in the park for awhile; they held hands and just sat there. The wind was cold but it did not matter because they had each other’s warmth to keep them warm and from that moment on, they knew that their life would never be the same.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008


Undress me slowly,
caress me gently,
entice me roughly, and
love me unconditionally.

Monday, June 16, 2008


Friends come and go, like the seasons change before our eyes, taking a course of their own. You have always remained the same; loyal and a true friend.

This is to you, my one and only... sisters, till the end…

I have wondered about my surroundings, the people who have touched my heart and those who have managed to influence my life in any kind of way shape or form. I think about those who have helped me in my time of need and those who have been there through the good and bad times and never asked for anything in return.

The only person who came to mind was you…

I can honestly say that I have never had a friend like you; someone sincere with a loving heart, someone who will tell you the truth regardless of the pain it may cause you, but in the long run help you. A person you can honestly look in the eye and say; This girl right here is my Best Friend I would give my heart and soul to her if she needed them”.

You know all there is to know about me, just like I know all there is to know about you. A novel written well,
you are my diary, the white pages that I write to, and the person I turn to when my day is clouded up with disaster or brighter than the sun above.

You are who I turned to when I have no hope left, when I feel that I can no longer go on, and the strength that holds me up and gives hope for a better tomorrow.

I love you so much it hurts to think that maybe one day you won’t be there; I don’t know what I’ll do without you. A friendship like ours is so hard to find, a bond so tight that nothing has ever come between our friendships and yes we fight like cats and dogs and and YES we disagree more than what we agree . But I love you. ALWAYS and forever...

Two old ladies sitting by a tree


Nursing homes are sweet, sweet, sweet


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